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My 40 Day Fast


“Why do they call it a fast when it goes so slooooow?” —Gallagher

This is the longest I’ve ever gone without sugar, coffee, meat, tortilla chips, snacks, ice cream and Chinese food. In fact, this is the longest I’ve gone without food. Period.

Also, I missed the Superbowl and haven’t seen Parks and Recreation for six weeks.

And I never wanted to do this. Ever. Would you?

But I had to.  (Read my sermon about fasting along with devotional notes by clicking here.)
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Things got so tough in my neck of the woods in Central Texas that I was desperate.

Some of you may know that I moved from California to Texas at God’s call to plant a church in Dripping Springs, Texas. It failed after a year and a half. Then I was hired as a pastor in Johnson City at Community Church of the Hills. A God-send. Wonderful people. Love. A future!

But when we moved onto our cozy little seven acres we did not know that we would be next to a neighbor who would hate the fact that we had to cross his property on what’s known as an easement. Two turns in court and thousands of dollars later, the issue has been resolved—but at a cost.

It took a toll on my family. There were many personal issues we were encountering given all the moving and adjusting to a whole ‘nother culture and having now-teenage daughters. For a year and a half we had to endure many small indignities at the hand of our neighbor. And there was the stress of being the pastor of a new congregation with all the expectations placed on my wife and I.

It got to the place where I felt I could not endure anymore, so I called my former pastor in California and explained to him that I was ready to give up.

He wouldn’t hear of it.

“I want you to fast and pray until you get a clear voice from the Lord to stop. You want to pray until you are weak. Because when you are weak, you are strong and God’s strength is perfected in weakness.” Then he gave me a specific Scripture verse.

I have tried to do everything my pastor has told me in the past. He has never led me astray. But fast with an unknown end date?

During 2015, I felt the Lord was leading me to a 40 day fast two times but I “conveniently” didn’t hear him. Now he spoke through my pastor. This was the third time. I better do it.

It was right before Christmas when I talked with him, and I thought best to wait until after the holidays so I would not offend my family by not eating the tasty Yuletide offerings my wonderful wife was preparing. A few days after Christmas I weighed myself: 202 pounds. Little did I know how much that figure would change. Drastically.


Fasting? But why fast? What’s the reason for doing so?

Well, it’s Biblical for one thing: In the Old Testament, regular fasters were Moses, David, Elijah, Daniel and Hannah. In the New Testament, Jesus, of course, as well as the Apostles and Anna.

Fasting continued to play a regular part in the early church and the early church Fathers, down through the lives of the Reformers like Martin Luther and John Calvin. Different theological schools were also represented like Arminian John Wesley and Calvinist Jonathan Edwards.

Fasting is a way to humble yourself before the Lord, and can serve as prescription against a prideful heart. It disciplines the body and humbles the soul. It’s a way to increase personal holiness, to get God’s attention, if you will, and a way to set the captives free.

“But this kind does not go out except by prayer and fasting,” said Jesus.

Fasting is not a hunger strike, nor a manipulative device nor a form of dieting. Fasting should be about God, one that is set apart for him to honor and glorify him, designed to accomplish his will.

I wanted to show God that I meant business and was serious enough about needing him to move in my life that I was willing to afflict myself until he did. Like Jacob wrestling with the angel I would not let go until he blessed me.

Jonathan-EdwardsJonathan Edwards (1703 – 1758) wrote, “Under special difficulties…in great need…or [if you have a need for] any particular mercy, for yourself or others, set apart a day for secret prayer and fasting by yourself alone; and let the day be spent, not only in petitions for the mercies you desire, but in searching your heart, and in looking over your past life, and confessing your sins before God….”mat henry


Matthew Henry (1662–1714) said: “Fasting and prayer are proper means for the bringing down of Satan’s power against us, and the fetching in of divine power to our assistance.”

I started on January 6, 2016. Happy New Year indeed.

There are 4 types of Biblical fasts:
1. Normal (fast from all food, Matthew 4:2)
2. Partial (dietary limitation, Daniel 1:12)
3. Absolute (no food or liquids, Ezra 10:6)
4. Supernatural (Deuteronomy 9:9)

In the Bible there were varying lengths of time one should fast: 1 day, 3 days, 7, 14, 21, and 40 days

I had to ask the Lord how long I should fast.

I’ve done many, many one day fasts in my life and quite a few three day fasts. But one with an undetermined end?

How did I prepare? I stopped eating.

The first day I was almost catatonic. Sluggish. Caffeine headache. Irritable. I could barely keep my eyes open. This is how every fast I’ve ever done began. After the second day, hunger pangs diminish, along with the headaches. By the third day, there’s no hunger at all.

Then I waited for a clear word from the Lord to stop on the tenth day. Oh please Lord, please, let it just be a ten day fast! In addition to not eating any food and drinking only water, I also chose not to watch any TV, DVDs or movies. (I did stay on the Internet and read some news, posted on Facebook and viewed a few YouTube videos though.)

The eleventh day came and went. So did the fifteenth, eighteenth and nineteenth.

During this time I prayed, read my Bible and read other things. I’d love to say I was this super-spiritual giant but that just wasn’t the case. How long can you pray anyway? Just how much Bible can you read? I’d cry out to God regularly throughout the day, and frankly, after I left my office, I was mostly bored. When I got home, I’d pray some more, read my Jack Reacher novel alternating it with “American Sniper.” Hey, just telling you the truth here!

And I really, really looked forward to going to bed, which was about 10:00 each evening. I don’t normally dream, but while fasting, I dreamt a lot. (One night I dreamed I was eating a big marshmallow and in the morning my pillow was gone! Only kidding!) I’d get up at 6AM or so, then take a regular two mile gentle walk most days. Moderate exercise was perfectly fine. I lost an average of about two pounds a day for the first ten days, then about a pound a day afterward. I weighed myself every other day.

And the calendar pages turned slowly, ever so slowly. Perhaps God was calling me to a twenty one day fast?  Oh please, Lord, please, let it just be a twenty-one day fast!

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On the twenty first day, I opened to my daily reading in the Bible. There it was, big as day. The exact verse my pastor had given to me which started my fast. Ohhhh, nooooooo! It’s a 40 day fast! Nineteen days to go. Almost three more weeks! Without eating?

Then I looked at my preaching schedule. We are going through the book of Mark verse by verse. And the next teaching was on…wait for it: Jesus’ temptation in the wilderness while he fasted forty days and 40 nights. Ohhhh nooooooo. IT IS a forty day fast!

I’m mean, PRAISE GOD!!! WOO HOO!

Things got worse. Our neighbors did many more unbelievable things. Family situations became even more challenging. That’s just the way it goes.

When Jesus was in the wilderness for those 40 days did Satan let up? Of course not. He piled on everything he had. I resolved to shut my mouth and trust God. He assured me he was hearing my requests  through his word, primarily through the Psalms, when he would say repeatedly that he heard the prayer of the afflicted. The rest is very personal.


I kept thinking of the dry deer sausage in my work refrigerator. And cheese. And queso with beef in it. Salads. Pizza. I had to shut my mind off to all food. I endured two potlucks. I had to leave our home regularly or hide in a back room when meals were prepared. I wasn’t hungry, but I wanted to eat. I thought of all the restaurants I would visit when this was over.

Go to bed. Wake. Read. Pray. Walk. Go to work. Read. Go to bed.

I wasn’t weak even after thirty days, but I did get tired. I would take a forty minute nap midday. I drank about a gallon of water daily. My system was shutting down. No laxatives but an occasional enema. I bought new pants. What little muscles I had were disappearing.

Quite literally, I wasting away. Starving. Yet God sustained me.

And I started to see the real me, my own black heart. My lack of self-control. Defensiveness, Prickliness. Irritability. Murderous, hateful thoughts. How I didn’t listen and always wanted to be right. I saw my pride, that Mother of all sins. Oh wretched man that I am. Who will rescue me from this body of death?

I pretty much kept this fast to myself, though I did tell a few people. If someone asked, I explained. I wasn’t coy. But then my daughter told a kid in Youth Group what I was doing, then the whole High School knew. Then the town. Oh well, let them think I was crazy. The religious leaders told Jesus he was demon-possessed, a drunkard and glutton. I was doing this for God and would not be dissuaded.

My preaching, believe it or not, didn’t suffer. I really felt filled with the Spirit, though my voice was getting weak.

I still worked, met with people, started a Men’s discipleship group and gave a State-of-the-Church address about the goals I’d like to see accomplished this year in our fellowship.

Our new easement was built and our neighbors stopped hassling us. Other things still loomed, not everything changed, but I continued to trust God.

I prayed this prayer in my head on the evening of the thirty-fifth night as I drifted off to sleep: “Lord, if you take everything I own, if I lose my home, if I am paralyzed and an invalid for life, I will trust in you. If I am deep in debt, lose an arm, am wheelchair-bound, if my family leaves me, I will believe in you. If I’m scorned and no other prayer is ever answered, I’m yours. I will praise you.”

Then I drifted off to sleep.

Five more days. Then four, three, two.

The fortieth was on Valentine’s Day. I preached on fasting without letting the congregation know I was, though a few knew already. They probablymefastedit thought I had cancer. I was miserable and irritable when I got home and had to leave. My self-control was barely there. I promised my wife a special night the next week. I went back to my office and crashed. I didn’t want to blow it completely on my last day. I went to bed at 11PM.

At 5AM I woke up with severe cramps in the left leg due to my loss of electrolytes: My foot, calf and thigh were twisting and I endured this for about a half hour and prayed for a friend who has blood cancer and undergoes these types of cramps regularly.

My plan for day forty one: awaken, pray, read my Bible and then go for my two mile walk so that I could thank God for his sustaining power.

Then eat.

My wife the nurse prepared my “re-feeding” program, which may take up to ten days. She studied and thought the best course of action would be to adhere to the guidelines from Scarborough Hospital in the U.K. (found in this article on long fasts). This is important when breaking a fast because if I eat too much at first, I can have a heart attack, even die. This happened to the starving Jews after WWII. I can’t eat what I want, but must take it slow.

I fulfilled my morning plan. Then I had breakfast: twelve ounces of beef broth. Oh how glorious! Lunch: one half an avocado. Delicioso! And dinner? eight ounces of beef broth. I’m restricted to 350 calories the first day. 700 the next. And I will gradually increase my caloric intake, until I can tryout the new burger joint in town. And the pizza buffet.

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The word the Lord impressed upon me during this 40 day fast was this: “My grace is sufficient.” If nothing ever changes, His grace is sufficient.

And it always will be.Andrew_Murray

“Fasting helps to express, to deepen, and to confirm the resolution that we are ready to sacrifice anything, to sacrifice ourselves to attain what we seek for the kingdom of God.”—Andrew Murray (1828–1917)

Now read what happened 40 days past my 40 day fast by clicking here.


My Re-feeding Program

My plan was to originally work up to 2300-2400 calories a day over about ten days, but you will see that I abbreviated it quite a bit.

Day 1: 350 calories. 2 mile walk

Morning:  1 cup green tea. Electrolyte drink. 1 cup Beef broth. Vitamins

Afternoon: 1/2 avocado, 1 cup green tea

Evening: 1 cup Beef broth, 1 cup veggie soup. Vitamins

Oh no! My appetite is coming back…and quickly!

Day 2: 700 calories. 2 mile walk.

Morning: 1 cup green tea, electrolyte drink. 1 cup kefir. vitamins. (Note: Kefir is used to restore necessary stomach bacteria.)

Afternoon: 1 cup green tea. 1/2 avocodo, 1 cup veggie soup,

Evening: 1 cup veggie soup, vitamins

700 calories is no where near enough but I don’t want to die of a heart attack. If I could go 40 days without food, I certainly can handle a few days with limited food.

Day 3: 1050 calories, 2 mile walk, jog.

Morning: 1 cup green tea. electrolyte drink, 1 cup kefir, 1/2 English muffin, no butter, vitamins

Afternoon: 1 cup beef vegetable soup, 1/2 avocado.

Late afternoon: 1 cup butternut squash soup, 1 oz dry deer sausage

Evening: 1 cup vegetable beef soup, 1 slice of no cheese pizza with nutritional yeast, about 9 of my daughters french fries, vitamins.

I’m dreaming of buffets and pizza and salad and popcorn. Can I last seven more days? AAAARRRGGHHHH!

Day 4: 1400 calories, 3 mile walk,  jog

Morning: 1 cup green tea. I cup black coffee. 1 cup kefir, 1/2 English muffin, no butter, 1 oz. fresh blueberries & blackberries, vitamins

Afternoon: 1-1/2 cups beef vegetable soup, 9 tortilla chips w/ guacamole, 1 cup coffee w/2tsp. sugar, 2 teaspoons powder creamer. 1/2 cup black coffee

Late afternoon: 1 cup butternut squash soup, 1-1/2 oz of dry deer sausage, 1 slice of no cheese pizza with nutritional yeast.

Evening: 7 tortilla chips, 1″ sharp cheese, 3 tablespoons of guacamole, 1 cup beef and vegetable soup. 1 oz. of berries w/whip cream. Vitamins. (Approx. 75-125 calories over limit today)

I can’t hold on much longer. I’m really, really hungry. My body, so long in starving mode, wants to eat a lot!!!

Day 5: 1750 calories Anything goes!!!

Morning: Black coffee, 1 cup yogurt with granola and berries., 1/2 English muffin.

Afternoon: A big old huge salad, deer sausage, bleu cheese dressing. Heck with it all! I’m eating! I feel great!

Dinner: Panda Express, 3 entrees with chow mein (I ate half of it. My stomach has shrunk!)

Evening: Popcorn with some butter and olive oil spray and Parmesan cheese. 1/4 pint of Ben and Jerry’s ice cream!

I feel I can eat now. I get a sense that my body has adapted already. I feel great at my new weight and do not want to gain anything back. I will start weight lifting in about two weeks to try to get back the muscle tissue I lost. I will probably gain 10 pounds just to have my body get the nutrition it needs. Lots of veggies. I love my new 32″ waist. I haven’t had this since high school. God is good! He gave me the strength!

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  1. Well written article my friend! You’ve been through it big time! All I can say is I’m very proud of you. I doubt anyone else could have pulled this off! That’s why He called you! And thanks for your prayers; I’m still in the fight!
    Love you, Bro Steve-

  2. Pastor Steve,

    Thank You for sharing this. You are certainly true to your convictions, perhaps more than most men I have known.
    Know that my personal concerns and prayers have followed you through this trial of spirit.


  3. Is your neighbor a Christian, Steve?

  4. Compliments on your determination Steve. Fasting isn’t easy, the longest I ever fasted was nine days and I hated it. It was for a good cause, I was twenty and had given up drugs and alcohol but still had terrible cravings, a friend of mine suggested a fast to cleanse my system, nothing but water and salt tablets. I have no clue if there is any science behind the “cleanse” thing or if the fast actually did anything physically but it definitely helped. I have been drug free since, I began drinking alcohol again after five years but only in moderation. Anyway that was a bit of a tangent lol but I just wanted to convey my respect for your ordeal.

  5. I have done a 30 day fast before, just keep liquids in your body and you will adjust to it soon enough. Also do not over extend your self. During my fast I was active on the streets doing evanglism so I was walking about alot. I ended up losing almost 40 Lbs.

  6. Also when you end your fast, its important to slowly transition back to solid foods! 40 days will cause your body adjust and it wont handle a sudden intake of solid food.

    Stay with soups, puddings , mash potatoes for a few days then work back up from there!

    • Thanks Ryan! Yep, I’m on day 5 of my re-feeding. I’m enjoying my fist two cups of coffee in 45 days!!! I’m going to try drinking it black from now on. Had some deer sausage yesterday on Day 3 of my re-feed. My wife made me lots of good soup: first vegetable, then butternut squash, then beef and vegetable. Got me lots of electrolyte drinks and vitamins. It pays to marry a nurse!

  7. Wow, Steve, great reading and it really touch me to start praying about fasting for more then one day and for a lot of other things.

  8. You have been and continue to be a wonderful source of inspiration and courage to me and Kim, brother. Your faith in God in the face of great adversity is obviously unshakeable and because He is the One who gave you the grace, strength and ability to withstand this 40 day ordeal, He is to be praised, honored, and thanked with a grateful heart. May you receive His blessing and wisdom in knowing how to discern His will for you in the near and far future as a result of your sacrifice. In all aspects, God bless you, Steve, and I thank God for the example you are to others…like me.

  9. Hi Steve,
    I was going to joke about this, but I’m afraid it will come back to haunt me. Truly I can’t imagine. I have enough difficulty with the Daniel fast after 2 weeks.
    Has Karen tried Chamomile tea yet? When one of our mini church members complained of difficulty sleeping he finally tried it after I bought a box. Now it’s his routine and it works for him.
    I’m actually sort’ve looking forward to a Daniel’s fast soon as I just gained back last year’s loss and I realize I’ve been eating badly. Now I have some kind of sickness, but it didn’t stop me from picking up some seasonal sweets with a coupon at Target.

  10. Glad to hear how God sustained you Steve. I pray that you will continue to cling to Him in the days/months/years to come (and that you’ll never have to do a 40-day fast again). God bless.

  11. Wow, such a cool & raw testimony there at the end Pastor Steve. I sure hope you get a new pillow for your birthday! Haha! That was clever:) You encouraged me to give fasting a try, I may not actually die.

  12. Thank you I needed this!
    You have encouraged me greatly!
    Praise God!

  13. What an inspiring testimony. I am attempting a 40 day absolute fast and I am on my second day. So far, so good. Reading your story was very motivational and deeply encouraging!!! Thank you for sharing!!! May the Lord God continue to bless you and your family.

    Kind regards
    Shannon in Tennessee

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