The continuing account of how I made my move to Texas, wrestled with God and ultimately trusted Him.
My heart is divided in three. One part is here in Vietnam, of course, the other at home, the third part concerns the future church plant. Can I do it? It’s too late to turn back now. I received an email stating that our home loan is formerly cleared for closing. That is, we are cleared for purchasing our new Texas home. Done deal.
I spoke to my wife on the phone and she cautioned me that the battle was not over. I needed to get home to sign the loan documents. I somehow had to get home a day earlier to do this because I was currently scheduled to arrive after the closing time of the contract for this loan, then everything would fall through.
I prayed with the men of the team for wisdom.
I found that I could sign in the Ho Chi Minh City consulate and have my signature notarized, then sent back. I refuse to worry. Still, I worry. But God spoke in his word from Psalm 35: 3-
“Say to my soul, ‘I am your salvation.’ “
And that’s it, isn’t it Lord? Remind me again, make me aware of what’s truly important, what really matters, who’s really in control. I’m reminded of this Spurgeon quote:
Cannot you trust God for temporal things? “Ah! I wish I could.” If you cannot trust God for temporal things, how dare you trust him for spiritual things? Can you trust him for your soul’s redemption, and not rely upon him for a few lesser mercies? Is not God enough for your need, or is his all-sufficiency too narrow for your wants? Do you want another eye beside that of him who sees every secret thing? Is his heart faint? Is his arm weary? If so, seek another God;
David wrote, “Restore to me the joy of my salvation.”
God doesn’t want my tri-forcated mind, he wants me to love him with all my mind; he’s given me a transformed mind. Thank you for your wonderful ordering of my priorities; thank you for the tests. I commit this new challenge to you , O Lord.
The next morning, Spurgeon confirmed this in his Morning and Evening devotional:
“Do you believe that your sins are forgiven and that Christ has made full atonement for them? Then what a joyful Christian you ought to be! How you should live above the common trials and troubles of the world! Since sin is forgiven, can it matter what happens to you now?”
Indeed, Lord, say to my soul, “I am your salvation.”
Part 12 upcoming…